Breaking point

Could this be the ending or the beginning? Can leave everything behind and start all over again? I wonder.

I keep falling over and over again after getting off my knees.

Can you just be considerate enough to realize I'm placed here because of you. I don't mean to chanel my pain and anger towards you but sometimes I fell you leave me with no choice. I'm struggling, practically suffocating and I'm reaching out for help but you never try to save me. Why?

I've put all my friends at arms length, never wanting to show I can't cope, never showing them any tears. I can't do this anymore than I already have, don't you understand? I'm not asking you to fix my shattered dreams or my life but I'm asking for some sort of compassion.

Don't break my heart more than it already has, it can't stand anymore. I don't need you to feel sorry. Sorry doesn't mean anything when it's repeated time again. Yes, everyone makes mistakes but not so often as to put the one you claim you love in the battlefield, wounded.

I have times where I wish I was dead. This is one of them.

Maybe now you'd do something.